how real can someone be?

Lately I have stopped myself several times from writing on this blog.

I mean do I really want 'this' or 'that' to be out there on the net?

I read other blogs and my reaction is like 'wow' ... is this really how this person lives?

In my case, for example, I really can't vent about work - I could lose my job.

And um, 'til further notice, I need that gig. Only been there like what, 17 years?

Then there is Facebook. And Twitter.

I honestly don't like to put how I really feel or what is really going on with me on Facebook.

Too many chismosos in there. Including family.

They don't need any more material for their lenguas viperinas.

If anyone wants to really hear me complain - not that I do it THAT often - then they would have to follow me on Twitter. Kinda glad the familia is not on Twitter. LOL

It is only on Twitter where I post links to my blogs.

And now that I am playing with this application called Foursquare, it is only on Twitter where I plan to send updates to.

I feel that I need to be more real in here ... write more about what is going on with me ... dunno, we'll see ...

here I go again...

here I go again trying to be consistent with this blog thing ... my life has been/is going through so many changes since my mom passed away ... sometimes I feel like I still haven't dealt with her death ... guess I haven't...

not even 2 wks after mom passed, my dad moved in with me ... it really wasn't a big decision to make as we get along well and I just could not imagine leaving him in that apartment by himself ... so that is still a change I am dealing with ... he gets upset 'cause am glued to the computer ... I say "hey, do I complain about what you do?" and then things calm down for a bit ...

change change change ... that seems to be the word that stays on my head lately ... so many changes, so little time to adjust 'cause life just goes on whether you have adjusted or not ... sometimes I feel mami is still in PR & I grab my phone to call her and then I remember ...

some changes I have implemented in my life so far are more health oriented ... I cut down on my soda intake, I started walking and I started going to the gym ... like my favorite song says ... "sometimes goodbye is a second chance"...

mute?

not really... what happened that I didn't blog here? I decided to create another blog in wordpress and I blogged a bit more there but not much... all the changes @ work and the pressure of the new responsibilities I have now @ work kept me from coming here... not that I had any followers but I guess I should explain it somehow, so yeah, there... that's why! lol

not sure if it shows as a blog that I follow but here's the link - http://candlestar.wordpress.com

still not sure if I will have time to keep them both up to date, however, with them being linked, it'll be easy to follow me anywhere... laters!