what this family is about

I am sitting here watching cartoons with G as I check my stuff online and he comes and hugs me and goes ... "this is what our family is about, you and me, being together and love" ... and hugs me again ... ohhh I love that boy!

umbrellas & memories

The other night I went to Wal Mart with G after school. It was raining. A lot. As we were walking into the store, he goes:

G: oh mami, I remembered something!

me: what did you remembered?

G: one time, when abuela was alive, I went for a walk with her. But it wasn't raining like now, it was sunny.

me: ahhhhhh yeah, if it is really sunny, is a good idea to walk with an umbrella and that way the sun won't feel so hot on you.

G: yeah yeah ... I think that is why she did it ....

(he then stayed quiet for a minute that seemed like forever and then he said...)

G: do you miss abuela mami? I miss her a lot.

me: yeah I do, I miss her a lot too ... but how do you feel when you remember something about her, like the walk with the umbrella?

G: happy, just the same way as when she was alive ...

me: well, when you remember stuff like that ... those are memories ... and as long as we keep abuela's memories by remembering ... we won't miss her that much ...

G: that sounds like a plan mami ... I love you ....

and then he hugged me ... this conversation took place only from the parking lot to get into the store ... but the memory of this converstation is still making my heart smile ...

Love ... Cartoon Network Style

Mami, I have something to tell you.

Yes son?

I am your Chowder and you are my Panini.

Now that is LOVE ... Cartoon Network style ... lol

amor

... this is something that I wrote about 2-3 yrs ago ... it is in Spanish as that is my first language

amor triste
amor chiquito
amor cobarde
amor muerto

ilusiones muertas
ilusiones rotas
ilusiones de algo que pudo ser tan grande

como una semilla
que no la enterraron
lo suficientemente hondo para poder crecer

pero gracias a
tu amor triste
tu amor chiquito
tu amor cobarde
tu amor muerto

encontre el mas grande amor
el amor a mi misma
a mi persona
a mi cuerpo
a mi mente
a mi alma

y ahora cuando te veo
solo me das pena

pq sigo viendo
un amor triste
un amor chiquito
un amor cobarde
y un amor muerto

solo tu puedes hacer que ese amor crezca en ti
y ojala un dia puedas entenderlo y lograrlo

dedicado a mi ex