Thursday, May 30, 2013

How Do You Know

How do you know when it's really over?  How do you know when that person is really over you?

It's been close to 7 years since I got divorced.  He got married soon after and they are still together.  But, how do you know?

The other night, as I was finishing watching a TV Series and I sat there, looking at my walls, the walls we painted together ... I talked to him (in my head of course, I am not crazy, LOL) ... and I asked him why .... why didn't you fight for us, for our family ... and how ... how was it so easy for you to walk away ... to leave your child ... to just immerse yourself in another life ... how?

I don't know if I will fall in love again.  I don't know if I will get married again.  My priority is my son and me.  He is my family.  I don't feel like I need to have someone by my side to complete me.  Been there, done that.

I learned that I am whole by just being me.  I learned that in order to take care of others, I have to take care of myself.  And I catch myself from time to time either humming or just smiling for no apparent reason.  And you know what that means?  I am happy.  Me! Happy!  Who knew?  LOL

And I guess that is how I know I am over it, over him .... yet by the little things he says and does ... I wonder if he is over me ... like a good friend says ... oh well ....


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