Tuesday, December 29, 2009


2009 can not end fast enough ... seriously!  This has been a year filled with change and challenges ... from getting a promotion at work which equals more responsibilities to dealing with death when my mom passed away in June ... to changes at home when I brought my dad to live with us ... to then dealing with almost losing him in a car accident in October ... to then juggle work, raising my son, taking care of my dad, dealing with family issues, work issues, even ex's issues ... am just ready for this year to be over, finito, done, period.
That last day of the year though is my favorite one and do you want to know why?  It is my son's birthday.  He turns 7 years old this year ... seven!  Where did the time go?  Poof!  Just like that ... those seven years just flew by ...
Wonder what 2010 has in store for me ....

Wednesday, December 9, 2009


Today, as I walked back to my van after I dropped off G at school, a little girl came to hug me. She was in the same classroom with G last year in Kindergarten, I will call her Rose. Every time she sees me, she gives me a hug. Today thought, it felt like she needed a hug ... so I stopped - I was already late for work - and knelt down to give her a hug. And that is when I felt it ... her heart beating like a millions horses were inside that little body ... then I looked at her face and she was soooo sad. She said she misses her daddy. From what she said, I guess her parents separated or something happened that he is no longer in the house.
In a way, I am glad that G is too young to remember when his dad I separated. He wasn't affected like this little girl. It broke my heart to get up and leave her but I had to as I was already late for work. But I have her here, squeezed inside my heart ...

Monday, December 7, 2009


Last night, out of the blue, G says "mami I am grateful for life!" ... and I was like "awwwwwwwwwww" and "where did you hear that?" ... and he says "nowhere, I just think about it in my head and it just came out of my mouth" ... guess what ... he is not the only grateful one ...

Friday, December 4, 2009

Naughty or Nice

G has been mentioning and asking if Santa really has a list or not ... he just can not believe that someone would actually get COAL instead of presents on Christmas Day! LOL
I think he is a little preocuppied that he might not get what he wants - games, games and more games! - So ... I made this http://www.mdmgames.net/npnOrlandoSentinel/?v=N9b3nKV8OHH9gX2jsTbreg%3d%3d at The Orlando Sentinel website - www.orlandosentinel.com - so I can show him that he is on the Nice list and not the Naughty one!


Today is a wet, soggy, gray, gloomy day here in Orlando.  One of those days that you just want to stay home, under the covers, watching tv and sipping hot chocolate.  I will try to do that tomorrow when I am off work ... in the meantime, I have soup here at work to comfort me.  These type of days one needs comfort food to get through the day.  In spite of the gloominess of the day, I woke up smiling, content ... I could even say happy.  Why?  ... 'cause I woke up hearing my dad humming ... and that is a good thing because to me, that is a sign that he is happy ... and for at least a month he had stopped doing it because of depression.
And he has more than enough reasons to be depressed but he has always pulled himself up.  He is my hero.  He gets on my nerves, oh boy does he get on my nerves ... but he is my hero.  He looks at me crazy the times I have said that to him but hey, at least he knows ... people should know how you feel about them when they are alive, not after.  More so when it is something good ... if it is bad, then that is just a topic for another blog.  Seriously.
So yeah, today I am grateful for waking up to that sound.  Happiness is contagious ... he probably has no idea how it affects me but it does.  I am the person that usually sees her glass half empty ... everyone else's glass is half full but not mines.  I am trying to change this about myself.  To that end I started a gratitude journal today and my first entry for today was that ... that I was grateful for my dad humming.  It made a difference on how my day started... for real.